Sat on 19 days this month, totalling 15 hours 34 minutes practice. (31 entries total)


Thu
19
Evening sit with the sangha. Had not been for two weeks and really missed it. Found I still have not let go of these old resentments that I though ...

Morning sit. Still body awareness exercises.


Wed
18
Morning sit. Shorter and later than normal due to lack of sleep


Tue
17
Evening sit. Very emotional day, lots of stuff whirling around. Good to watch and let it all settle. Also realised am holding on to some really ol ...


Mon
16
Morning sit


Sun
15
Afternoon sit with sangha friends.

Morning sit


Sat
14
Morning sit


Fri
13
another sit

morning sit


Thu
12
Midday sit. Anger and grief. Again very little separation from these turbulent feelings, only moments. Brief pause while a neighbour gave me a hug ...


Wed
11
Evening sit. Sitting with the fear that always comes after the rare times I allow myself to feel anger. Felt better this time to not run away fro ...

Morning sit. Poor concentration.


Tue
10
Another sit.

Morning sit. Poor concentration after not very much sleep. big painful knot in my chest, just trying to breathe into it because I notice I keep ho ...


Mon
09
Evening sit. post therapy collapse, seems to be a regular thing...

Morning sit


Sun
08
Evening sit

Afternoon sit


Sat
07
Morning sit. Actually lying down. Able to be with things a bit better.

Morning sit. 30 min and ten min. Managing to ‘watch’ the internal stuff for a few seconds at a time.


Fri
06
Morning sit, 30 +10 Yesterday this wall if anger I have been sitting with partly came down, without accessing any anger, just the hurt underneath. ...


Thu
05
Morning sit.

Morning sit.


Wed
04
evening sit. Struggling with some old awakened emotions and with tiredness and stopped because of falling asleep


Tue
03
Afternoon sit with mindfulness group after tai chi. Guided meditation, too much talking for me... This ended up being the practice, watching thes ...

Morning sit. Allowing remnants of something, whatever has been there these last few days, and watching them mostly pass. In between this, much mor ...


Mon
02
Evening sit. Everything feels softer. Still some small stuck bits that remain but completely different. Soft wind whispering and rustling leaves.

Morning sit. Same stuff still...


Sun
01
Evening sit. Struggling with resistance and tiredness. Very anxious knot in belly.

Morning sit. Same stuff as yesterday, sitting with a frozen block in my chest. Noticing that I cannot yet completely accept and allow this but am ...