Sat on 20 days this month, totalling 18 hours 5 minutes practice. (27 entries total)


Thu
20
Morning sit. Resting in sadness, heartbroken, so tired. Comforting to let go and just let it be. Heart sutra. Metta practice.


Wed
19
two morning sits, 36&10. Distracted sit, with my little boy who woke early. He rolled around on my lap, placed my old bear on me with his paws ...


Tue
18
morning sit


Mon
17
Morning sit. More of the same: heart sutra, metta...


Sun
16
Afternoon sit with sangha friends. I guess this must be what a really peaceful sit feels like. I started feeling agitated because I was scared of ...


Sat
15
Morning sit with the zendo. More distracted than I have been lately until the last sit which was peaceful and intense. Wonderful to sit with everyone.


Fri
14
morning sit. More meditation on the heart sutra, more meditation with my kanzeon statue and saying metta to some people for whom I have difficult ...


Thu
13
two sits, 30+15(tonight). Sat outside and extended metta to my cannibalistic hen; I am learning acceptance from her too... Another meditation on t ...

Morning sit


Wed
12
Evening sit with sangha. Very unusual sense of peace underneath the usual turmoils. Both comforting and okay irritating because I wanted to feel t ...

Another sit with the kanzeon statue. Lately coming in touch with a very deep emptiness, loneliness and craving, a bottomless hole. I guess everyon ...

Morning sit. Four minutes in my daughter came in, sat on my lap and hugged me all through the sit.


Tue
11
Afternoon sit. Needing to fully experience some painful stuff in a safe place. On my cushion.

Morning sit.


Mon
10
Morning sit. Held my statue of kanzeon and asked her for help, for me to have compassion both for myself and other people.


Sun
09
Afternoon sit. Meditation outside on the heart sutra. Felt a painful constriction in the middle of my back close to my heart, related to all this ...

Morning sit. Turning a corner perhaps. I can feel energy and life flow through me again. It feels really good...


Sat
08
Morning sit with the sangha. Sitting is a struggle at the moment. Tried metta but finding that I only have moments when I have something to give. ...


Fri
07
Morning sit.


Thu
06
Morning sit.


Wed
05
Evening sit with the sangha. Spent the first sit holding a lot of sadness and darkness inside, trying to concentrate on my breath. And the second ...

Afternoon sit

morning sit


Tue
04
Morning sit. Watching the barely conscious thoughts in which I bring other people in my mind to judge me. The awareness created some moments of fr ...


Mon
03
morning sit


Sun
02
Aftermoon sit


Sat
01
Evening sit. Concentration on my breath and awareness of thoughts, especially those where I am trying to judge myself from the point of view of ot ...