Morning sit. Still processing the opening that happened when I was given verbal permission to be upset. Strange what a huge effect it had on me. ...
Evening sit with the sangha. Bit sleepy! Good as always to sit for longer than I do by myself. Processing today's therapy session in which I was ...
Morning sit. I have all this resistance and holding back to be with, to accept and make friends with. Bowing practice and metta.
Afternoon sit. Good to sit again with the turmoil. Pushing away judgements, metta practice and feeling some calm and also energy.
Morning sit. Sitting with lots of conflicted feelings still. Being judged and feeling judged by somebody who matters to me. A little metta practic ...
Morning sit. Metta practice. Very anxious and conflicted, and this is making concentration harder. I feel that I need more sitting time but am fin ...
morning sit. Bowing practice and metta.
Morning sit. Very short this morning because of having visitors. Bowing practice to surrender anxieties.
Morning sit. Pretty distracted. Did same bowing practice as yesterday.
Morning sit. Problems with concentration and clinging to worries. Did 27 bows to surrender these, and this was helpful.
Evening sit with the sangha
Morning sit. Unable to focus so stopped early.
evening sit with the sangha.
morning sit. No gap at all.