Sat on 20 days this month, totalling 23 hours 2 minutes practice. (35 entries total)


Sat
20
sitting with the sangha


Fri
19
Evening sit.


Thu
18
afternoon sit.

Morning sit.

shower sit.


Wed
17
Sitting with the sangha.


Tue
16
Evening sit.


Mon
15
shower meditation, continuation of the last few days. It felt like a completion for now, because there were no more painful feelings and memories ...

body meditation. probably more like qigong than zen... Same meditation the last few days, it is getting stronger each time.


Sun
14
body meditation

shower sit, continuation of yesterday‘s.

body meditation


Sat
13
body meditation. sleepy!

Cannot make it to the zendo today. Sit in the shower with the memory of my three unborn pregnancies. Lit candles for all three. Had given the two ...


Fri
12
peaceful sit

Morning sit.


Thu
11
Morning sit. Still pretty peaceful, but a feeling of sadness and tightness in my chest and right shoulder had also crept in and I am not sure why ...


Wed
10
Sitting with the sangha. I felt on the last wednesday I came that something had resolved about my wednesday night sits with the sangha and these f ...

afternoon sit, also peaceful. Lots of joy today. I have noticed that the hypervigilence I have felt for the past three years is becoming less and ...

Peaceful morning sit


Tue
09
Afternoon sit. Weirdly peaceful after the last few days. Still a little pain in my right shoulder. Sitting with the memory of Lily and just being ...


Mon
08
Evening sit. I was 5 minutes into sitting with the same stuff and was raw and trembling like a leaf when two friends messaged me one after the oth ...

morning sit. Very painful, sitting with this guilt and self hatred that I did not realise I had, and with the memory of Lily, of her being born a ...


Sun
07
Evening sit. Sort of. In the bath. 54 bows. A continuation from yesterday. I am finding this difficult to write about. Six years ago I chose to e ...


Sat
06
For some reason I did my morning sit in the shower. 27 bows. My body remembered sitting in the shower while being pregnant and I sat with that for ...


Fri
05
morning sit.


Thu
04
Sitting with the sangha. There was a very tight feeling in my chest which I found I was resisting and not sure how to yield. But somehow my resist ...

Morning sit. I awoke with a strong feeling of panic, making knots in my throat and belly. I was not sure where it came from. It felt as if it was ...


Wed
03
Evening sit. Today I was reminded of one of my closest friends from uni who died a couple of years after graduation. I had been looking at photos ...


Tue
02
Evening sit. Things feel different still after the sit I did at the New Year. I feel a lot more peaceful and I can feel a gentle energy flowing n ...

Morning sit, stopped when my little boy woke up.


Mon
01
Evening sit. Did a sort of body scan, breathing into any areas of tension, a bit like yesterday but much less intense. Very relaxed!

First proper sit in a while. Have really missed it! I was worried I might feel sleepy but this was not a problem! This has to be one of the most ...