Sat on 19 days this month, totalling 22 hours 13 minutes practice. (41 entries total)


Tue
19
Morning sit. Processing a difficult conversation from last night about parenting and working out where the strong feelings associated with it come ...


Mon
18
Evening sit. Still following beliefs and letting feelings sink in.

Morning sit. Yesterday was my birthday and I am feeling touched and vulnerable from people showing they care for me. And wondering why this makes ...


Sun
17
Evening sit. Sleepy.

Morning sit. About self love, being gentle with my inner child. Feeling peaceful.


Sat
16
Afternoon sit/practice. Looking again at old beliefs that remain from when I was a child. They are partly hidden in my mind, or come up when I am ...

sit.


Fri
15
Evening sit. Battled with the urge to self harm, but just breathed everything in and felt it all.

Morning sit.


Thu
14
Evening sit. Sometimes when I see my mind spinning off somewhere, going round and round, instead of coming. back to my breath or awareness of be ...

Morning sit. A lot of self hatred. Resisting the urge to hurt myself, found that I was able instead to loving and kind.


Wed
13
Evening sit with the sangha. Difficult. Still inner child stuff, how the loss of my best friend in the time I was at school devastated me, and it ...

Afternoon sit. Another conversation with my inner child about her beliefs, this time why she believes she cannot cope with life.

Morning sit.


Tue
12
Afternoon sit. Following the thread of my belief on why I should not show my feelings or ask for help. I found a belief that feels like it is not ...

Another sit.

Morning sit. Difficult sit with some painful memories of loss, showing me a little bit more about where I am stuck. This sit was just accepting th ...


Mon
11
Evening sit. Another piece of the puzzle of how my past affects my present fell into place today so I let this sink in. And i also realised how mu ...

Evening sit. Another piece of the puzzle of how my past affects my present fell into place today so I let this sink in. And i also realised how mu ...

Morning sit. Talking to my inner child about her fears. Talking aloud seems to make a difference even though it doesnot feel very zen!


Sun
10
Evening sit.

Midday sit. First sit outside with the new hens.


Sat
09
Afternoon sit

Morning sit with the sangha. Fearful feelings from this inner child who feels exposed and in the spotlight. Realised that my relationship with her ...


Fri
08
Evening practice and sit... Started with a kind of guided meditation in which I had a very strong realisation of how the child in me approaches my ...

Afternoon sit. Sitting with my pattern of freezing when I feel afraid of outward judgement. It comes from childhood and is paralysing. Even when I ...

Morning sit


Thu
07
Afternoon sit with a friend.

Morning sit.


Wed
06
Evening sit with the sangha. Sitting with a slow hopeful transformation of a close relationship and also the sadness of the loss of a friendship ( ...

Morning sit.


Tue
05
Evening sit. Sitting with my fears of closeness.

Morning sit.


Mon
04
Evening sit

Morning sit


Sun
03
Evening sit.

Afternoon sit.


Sat
02
Evening sit

Afternoon sit. Visiting someone, so more difficult to sit.


Fri
01
Evening sit in the car. Metta for a friend. And more inner child work, sitting with old feelings of excitement and fear combined where I would rea ...

Morning sit. Sitting with a very old feeling of feeling judged by others and being completely aware of how my body reacts to it, frozen, turned in ...