Sat on 31 days this month, totalling 81 hours 44 minutes practice. (63 entries total)


Tue
31
More sitting with dark corners. Retreats seem to soften things up ready to be seen and dealt with on my return. Nothing new but each time seeing a ...

A late sit after a relaxing morning reading, writing and dozing. Good to take time as I ended up with a very gentle revisiting of some of my darke ...


Mon
30
It was a late sit after I'd been out for a night time sea swim and bonfire with some friends. Despite that and all my sleepiness it ended up being ...

Morning sit


Sun
29
Just being open to what arises

Sitting felt quite raw. Letting sensations arise and pass. It felt like there was something old and buried deep to sit with but I'll wait to see w ...


Sat
28
First sit back home. It always feels strange to be sitting alone after a week of sitting intensively with 40 others. I love retreats but the bac ...

Last sitting of the retreat before silence ended for the compulsory group photo, pack up and clean. After a week of silent eating the volume of ch ...


Fri
27
Last full day of the retreat and my first day of sitting in monk's robes. I had expected to hate wearing them. I move quickly, impatiently and clu ...


Thu
26
Fourth full day of retreat. No more migraine so I was able to be the jikido all day. I enjoy this. Somehow it changes my sitting to be overlooking ...


Wed
25
Third full day of sitting. Migraine easing off a little which is a good thing since I'd used up all my migraine tablets. Spent part of the afterno ...


Tue
24
Second full day of retreat. An hour less sitting today because on the second day dharma talks start replacing one of the sitting hours from the fi ...


Mon
23
First full day of the retreat and the start of a mega-migraine. I made it through the morning's sitting and samu (work period) then spent the afte ...


Sun
22
First sitting of the retreat. Good to be hear. I'm always impatient to sit more on the first evening. Tempted to stay up longer in the zendo but r ...

Just missed a train after stopping to take a call from my mum. Spent the time waiting for the next train doing slow kinhin on the station platform ...

A raw sit just before leaving to help set up the retreat centre. I'll be away until next weekend and off the internet for most of the time. I l ...


Sat
21
Another long but gentle evening sit, and another than had me waking up later in the middle of the night with an 'aha' feeling and a huge grin.

A short sit at the zendo before we packed up, loaded all the mats, cushions and supplies onto a van to take and unload at our retreat location, no ...


Fri
20
Another gentle allowing

It seems to be at the moment that evening sits are about softening up and then the following morning the sit hits more powerfully. Today it was a ...


Thu
19
Evening sit - a softening up, allowing.

Morning zendo sit before work


Wed
18
Sitting with sangha

Morning meditation. Quite a strange one but very, very helpful.


Tue
17
Evening sit - something brewing up but I'm not sure what it is yet.

Morning sit


Mon
16
Evening sit

Morning sit


Sun
15
20 minutes during the afternoon as part of a sangha discussion / support group 45 minutes before bed. I had only planned on a very short evening ...

Morning practice. A sort of gentle allowing, more physical than mental, thinking settling to barely there, background of revellers still arriving ...


Sat
14
Just a short spell tonight and lying down. Physically exhausted after having probably pushed myself too far during the day. I'd walked home slowly ...

Morning zazenkai with sangha and in the afternoon some short periods of sitting as part of a beginners introduction session. I always end up beami ...


Fri
13
Longer than usual evening sit. Too tired to think which sometimes is quite useful. It was tonight.

Morning sit


Thu
12
Evening sit

Morning zendo sit. Lovely to be in again for a morning sit thanks to a lift from a sangha member with a car. My balance is too unpredictable at th ...


Wed
11
Sitting with sangha. I burst out in silent laughter at one point.

Like an amnesty on previously blocked thoughts, Passing through so fast. They feel much less personal than they ever did before and more like univ ...


Tue
10
Plus informal unplanned extra sittings during the night. Almost thoughtless. Felt like a softening up ready to let go of something else.

Morning sit plus extra informal time in the middle of the night. Seeing old buried patterns more clearly.


Mon
09
Evening practice

Extra time during the day - unexpected but really helpful. A bit like being visited briefly by all sorts of emotions, seeing the universality of t ...

Morning sit - love bursting out in all directions


Sun
08
Evening sit

Morning sit - so glad to be sitting. I can't imagine life without it. When I remember how I used to approach my life it feels so painful and const ...


Sat
07
Evening practice.

Wanted to sit longer - work calls though...


Fri
06
Began with huge appreciation of my teacher, their teacher, the sangha and all those who practiced before. From that came a willingness to sit deep ...

Unintentionally this sit focused on death, perhaps brought up by talking to a friend who has been preparing her will and Advance Care Directive in ...


Thu
05
Evening sit - both gentle and powerful.

Morning zendo sit. Nice to be back in. Needed a lift from a sangha friend and a nap afterwards to combine the early start with a work day to foll ...


Wed
04
Sitting with sangha, In the service that followed I found myself suddenly temporarily silent. The chant that I'm so used to suddenly hit so hard t ...

Morning sit. I've been finding my way in recent days to live my life in its bigger sense. I think inspired both by my current koan (which has beco ...


Tue
03
Evening sit

Morning sit


Mon
02
Evening sit

Easy as falling off a log.


Sun
01
Sitting with a few sangha friends

Morning sit