Sat on 21 days this month, totalling 32 hours 14 minutes practice. (45 entries total)


Thu
21
In the past I pushed away so many thoughts and emotions. In recent years I’ve had periods of sitting with the backlogs of these emotions, includin ...


Wed
20
Sitting with sangha. Tearful at times.

Sitting with memories of old pains I think. No mental memories or stories for now. They will appear in time probably. Enough for now to open into ...


Tue
19
Sitting - and bowing again. Towards the end there was a sense of 'something difficult' coming up but not yet what it is.

Morning sit - felt like asking another unasked question and finding an answer which had been there all along.


Mon
18
Evening sit

Short morning sit


Sun
17
Short sit with sangha friends as part of a discussion group.

Various bits surfacing and settling during the night. My street, rarely quiet, had a particularly noisy night with various drunken revellers havin ...


Sat
16
Evening sit. Often just before sitting I can feel what the tone of a sit will be. Often I get a bubbly excitement about sitting. Today there was a ...

Sitting with sangha


Fri
15
Evening sit after a strange day. Started the day with a difficult sit, later had to take some time off from work to crash asleep and allow my migr ...

Morning sit - allowing some more of last night's stuff to come up. It is not pleasant to sit with the memories and emotions I blocked for so long ...


Thu
14
Just before my time for sitting I felt something coming up, like a return to much earlier years. This wasn't one of my normal sits but instead act ...

Morning zendo sit


Wed
13
Sitting with sangha

Sitting on a train heading off for a work training course.


Tue
12
This bowing might become a habit. A not entirely intended 108 full bows before sitting again tonight. By the time I actually sat, answers to unask ...

Morning zendo sit


Mon
11
Sat longer than intended. 30 minutes didn't feel the right time to stop.

Morning sit. Allowing the ripples from yesterday's surfacing stuff to pass. Serious and resolute.

 


Sun
10
Evening sit

Morning sit. Was aware on waking that was something bubbling up that I needed to sit with but I didn't know what and there was some aversion to it ...


Sat
09
Evening sit

Sitting with sangha


Fri
08
Evening sit. Today sitting felt like sitting with all those who have practiced and taught of old, the famous male zen teachers and the less well k ...

Morning sit


Thu
07
Sitting with sangha

Morning zendo sit


Wed
06
Sit with sangha. So good to be sitting with everyone them again after our summer closure month - athough I was away on retreat for half of that I ...

25 minutes at home and then short extra sits while waiting for hospital appointments. In between a long bike ride. I don't think the hospital are ...


Tue
05
Evening sit

Morning zendo sit. Feels like getting back to routine.


Mon
04
No thinking, slowed down almost to the point to stopping. It was only when I woke up in the middle of the night that I realised that something had ...

Morning sit


Sun
03
Evening sit

Morning sit. Strange how something can just suddenly feel so different. Often it is something that I already 'knew' but when it shifts as how I li ...


Sat
02
Evening sit. Today and yesterday, on and off the cushion, has partly been allowing myself to fully feel the little side of me that does not feel o ...

Morning sit- fully being with life as it is in this moment.


Fri
01
Evening sit

Went so fast this morning. Not time for longer - an appointment to get to