Sat on 22 days this month, totalling 33 hours 37 minutes practice. (46 entries total)


Thu
22
Belated morning sit after little sleep. Birds soaring outside including some right up close to my window. Towards the end sitting was sort of abou ...


Wed
21
Sitting with sangha. Just before sitting I'd agreed to give a talk at the Saturday session but had no idea what about. As soon as the sitting star ...

Spent the day in bed today with a migraine. As usual for me the enforced rest period meant that most of the day was spent in a sort of meditation. ...


Tue
20
Evening sit

Morning sit. 30 minutes in the laundarette as my washing spun and dried and feeling body sensations, trapped and moving energies turning into a bi ...


Mon
19
Shorter than normal evening sit (it was late). Full of love and joy as part of a raw 'realness'.

Morning sit. Began with 27 full bows, very slowly and with long pauses between some of them.


Sun
18
A 20 minute sit with sangha friends than later a characteristically strange 'sit' during which I didn't actually sit down at all. I lit my candle ...

Morning 'sit'. Lying down though rather than sitting. I experience a lot of things as energy movements/ bodily sensations and sometimes it is easi ...


Sat
17
Short, sleepy evening sit

Three short sits (5, 5, and 15 minutes) as part of a beginners session at the zendo

Zazenkai at zendo


Fri
16
Evening sit. Started off sleepily - it was late after work, household stuff and decorating - but then more awake. Either way it doesn't seem to ma ...

Morning sit.


Thu
15
Evening sit

In theory I should have had a lot to think about this morning but characteristically my head didn't have much to do in this sit. It was more about ...


Wed
14
Zendo sit. I am crap at seeing people be upset and not be able to jump up to help. Today a sangha friend starting crying loudly. I really wanted t ...

Morning zendo sit


Tue
13
Another late sit after decorating

Morning sit. Seemed to be about really feeling a past situation to allow it to be let go of completely.


Mon
12
Evening sit - in a cold painty room. I'd been decorating and left all the windows open to let some of the fumes out. A wild, windy cold night insi ...

Morning sit. After more mild energy stuff and some bad dreams in the night so sitting today it felt like I was sitting with all of the past 'me's ...


Sun
11
Evening sit. Felt very drowsy / not much happening until I stood up at the end when suddenly it felt very deep and meaningful and with energy surg ...

A short sit before heading out for a day's walking. It was touch and go whether or not my daughter was fit to be left and when we decided she was ...


Sat
10
Evening sit

I couldn't make it into the zendo this morning for zazenkai because my daughter is unwell so I decided to sit at the same time at home for the sam ...


Fri
09
Evening sit. Tonight as well as small standing bows to all my windows, the cushion and the altar I found myself bowing to my bookcase full of zen ...

Morning sit


Thu
08
Evening sit

Morning zendo sit


Wed
07
Sitting with sangha

Morning zendo sit. Really didn't want the sit to end. It didn't feel long enough. I'd been sitting with sadness again and felt that that sadness w ...


Tue
06
Evening 'sit', although most of it was either standing or lying down. Just before sitting there was a sudden sadness which bore no relation to my ...

Morning sit. Raw and immediate. All-inclusive. As I sat, with a wide expanse of earth out my window, lookin but not looking, feeling the scene and ...


Mon
05
Evening sit. Raw and all inclusive again. Today Manjushri is back looking towards me with a Buddha figure on either side for company. Yes I know t ...

Automatic writing about death: I've recently read Andrew Oztaseski's wonderful book on death and tonight was listening to some of his recent podcasts with Joan Halifax ...

Morning 'sit' - half sitting and half lying. Partly because I was quite wobbly after a bout of vertigo during the night and since I wasn't yet fit ...


Sun
04
Evening sit. Once again Manjushri was sitting with me rather than facing me :)

Another one of my strange sits. Comically so. I usually sit facing my altar with the Manjushri statue on it, now with a vast expanse of nature and ...


Sat
03
Evening sit. Started with trying out again a meditation/inquiry approach I'd been talking about with friends, demon feeding. I've used this a lot ...

Morning sitting. No distinction between inside and out. No sense of any of my body holding back or being excluded. All sensations, all the arises ...


Fri
02
Morning sit. Beginning and ending with small standing bows to everything


Thu
01
Evening sit. Just before sitting I'd written something for the zen centre's newsletter which I edit. Our theme this time is books which have impac ...

Morning zendo sit