Sat on 23 days this month, totalling 37 hours 41 minutes practice. (47 entries total)


Thu
23
Morning zendo sit. In the first half my talk for Saturday wrote itself in my head (I'll probably have forgotten it all by the time I come to write ...


Wed
22
Sitting with sangha. Just before sitting I was asked to do a reading / talk on Saturday (my first) so almost inevitably I spent part of one this ...

After bowing I sat down on the cushion I found myself spontaneously chanting the Verse of Atonement which I don't often do at home. Today it felt ...


Tue
21
This was almost like 2 different sits. I'd been to a writing workshop during the evening which looked at automatic writing, letting the words just ...

Really beautiful this morning, not actively sitting with anything but at the same time sitting with everything. It felt at a couple of points like ...


Mon
20
Started the sit with bowing and then all of a sudden decided to read over the wording of my tokudo (ordination) service. Some of it hit home harde ...

Morning sit. Brought in some of the wording from the service I listened to last night into the start of this sit. Felt appropriate somehow.


Sun
19
I thought that last night might bring a tearful sit after yesterday's sangha group involved some brave sharing of difficult emotions and experienc ...

A short sit at the start of a sangha group. Emotional and beautiful.

This felt beautiful. If my parents hadn't been expected any minute I'd have carried on sitting indefinitely. This morning bowing in front of the w ...


Sat
18
Evening sit - by the end I felt so sleepy that it barely felt like meditation but on getting into bed and on waking in the night it was clear it s ...

Quite a 'bitty' day of sitting today. First, the normal Saturday morning sitting at the zendo only instead of 3 sits I did two and spent the middl ...


Fri
17
Evening sit. Very good to be steady enough to actually sit this time rather than lie down.

Morning sit. A lying down sit on my side today because of my health issues, after which I had the sense to call work and rearrange my meetings. Ti ...


Thu
16
Evening sit

Morning zendo sit. Felt very fortunate to be there. I appreciate it more for making those morning sits less often recently.


Wed
15
Sitting with sangha. Feeling both tearful and grateful for the young student many years ago whose difficult situation I was unable to help. Recogn ...

Morning sit. A seemingly chance conversation got me thinking last night about the seemingly random chain of events that can shape our lives, how t ...


Tue
14
Evening sit - more of sitting with wisdom and compassion and trusting these

Morning sit. Like a bursting out. Cycled to the station noticing everything and everyone with even more delight than usual. The parents of all rac ...


Mon
13
Evening sit. Feeling so happy to sit. At the end noticed a sudden pain to the right side of my chest. I know from experience that this is probably ...

Morning sit. So wanted to sit for longer!


Sun
12
Tired but happy sit

Morning sit before heading out for my first walk in months :D


Sat
11
Evening sit

Morning zendo sit. 3 sessions of zazen. The first had a fair amount of thinking, processing the week and letting things settle. The second seeme ...


Fri
10
A sleepy evening sit after a friend's birthday celebration. If I am going to be out late I usually try to sit before I go out but tonight after wo ...

Morning sit. First half was about seeing and forgiving myself I think for some old ways of seeing the world and my place in it which led me to mak ...


Thu
09
Evening sit. On a sudden urge I moved a painting of the kanji for 'compassion' to my sitting spot. In its new temporary home it sits by a statue o ...

Morning zendo sit. With a lift in from a sangha friend I could make it in to the early morning sitting which always feels beautiful to share with ...


Wed
08
Sitting with sangha. A big smile arose as soon as I hit the cushion. I am ridiculously positive at the moment. Something seems to have cleared t ...

Morning sit


Tue
07
Evening sit

Morning sit. Because a lot of my old patterns of holding back from life stem from a very young age I've got a habit now of when I can feel an em ...


Mon
06
Evening sit

Morning sit


Sun
05
Sitting with a couple of sangha friends

Morning sit - like falling and being caught by life in every moment.


Sat
04
Evening sit

Morning sit


Fri
03
Evening sit

Morning sit - off work today so had a bit more time


Thu
02
A strange combination of deep absorption and day-to-day activity. My teenage daughter was out late and several times during the sit my phone vibra ...

Podcast on distraction and mindfulness: Sharing this is case it is of use to people. It is by Roshi Pat O'Hara, a zen teacher from the Village Zendo in New York. I enjoy her ta ...

Back to normal quiet sitting :)


Wed
01
Sitting with sangha. Monks wear robes in the zendo once a month when we have a more formal sitting. This was the first since my ordination. I was ...

Sitting with one of my darkest memories and by the end there was a real shift in how it felt. Each time it feels like I'm 'done' with these memori ...