180 minute meditation journal

10 March 2015 3:30 AM
Wow. Hatha yoga is the asana aspect of yoga. It's the "yoga" most Westerners are familiar with. The integration and true yoga comes from the Raja yoga. That is, the yoga of the mind. The meditation. Integrate the two together and you have a moving meditation that heals your entire mind/body/spirit complex. It's beautiful. It's moving and I don't mean that in a purely physical sense.

Keeping it short tonight as I am surrounded by distractions that are less than conducive to my, well, anything other than building and tolerating tapas.

I am grateful for my new friend Angie ... she's awesome and has helped me to feel "normal."
I am grateful to have had the strength both physically and mentally to complete 180 minutes of back-to-back hot yoga classes.
I am grateful that I am able to make a Hatha Yoga flow function as a moving meditation.
I am grateful for my innate, natural mechanical knowledge and skill.
I am grateful for the kindness shown to me by all of those I encountered tonight.
I am grateful that I could walk outside without a heavy coat tonight.
I am grateful the grocery has my favorite water on-sale for an incredible deal.
I am grateful for the insight regarding techniques and concepts to sample once the snow leaves us.
I am grateful to be sitting in the privacy of my car.
I am grateful to know that those in my hand therapy class genuinely respect and are consistently curious and wanting to learn more about the "weird but cool shit" I always share.

I want to sleep in my car tonight simply because I have no desire to be near or in contact with the family members who truly test my ability to maintain my imperfect Bodhisattva Ideal.

Is this acceptable? What would you all recommend instead?

Mind you, there was a time when I had no other place to sleep but my car so it's not like doing such a thing would bring me any emotional negativity.

Thank you, friends. For what? For being you. For being here. For sharing with me and letting me share with you.

With deep metta and most sincere appreciation and gratitude,


Sometimes solitude is exactly what we need. However for the times when that isn't possible these quotes may help:

"Life always gives us exactly the teacher we need at every moment. This includes every mosquito, every misfortune, every red light, every traffic jam, every obnoxious supervisor (or employee), every illness, every loss, every moment of joy or depression, every addiction, every piece of garbage, every breath. Every moment is the guru.

So a relationship is a great gift, not because it makes us happy – it often doesn’t – but because any intimate relationship, if we view it as practice, is the clearest mirror we can find."

I've probably learnt more from learning to be with people I found 'difficult' and testing than from those who give me a easy ride. I wouldn't seek out those situations but when you are in them it can help to remember that you can grow from them. Those quotes are by Charlotte Joko Beck BTW http://wellbodymindheartspirit.com/2011/06/16/each-moment-life-as-it-is-the-only-teacher-quotes-from...

Kokai (Sarah)
over 3 years ago