60 minute meditation journal

23 November 2017 7:50 AM
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Morning zendo sit. In the first half my talk for Saturday wrote itself in my head (I'll probably have forgotten it all by the time I come to write it down.) In the second half just sitting with a lot of space and quiet. In between cramp in one leg which I was very pleased to stretch during the mid-sit fidget moment (in the morning sitting which has no kinhin to break it up, the time keeper rings the bell once and anyone who needs to stretch or adjust their position does it then to minimise disturbances).

Comments

Shouldn't you be letting thoughts pass, not writing speeches? ;)
paulmac63
Paul V
22 days ago
I let thoughts pass but I also let them arise unobstructed. And what arose were words for the talk. I'll see if any of them have been remembered when I try to write down some ideas soon.

It would have felt very different if I was thinking about writing a talk but it was more that there was space where the talk just popped up. I've had that happen once before with an important work talk. I'd been really busy at work and hadn't had a chance to do my then usual micro-planned, drafting and rehearsing. The morning of the talk I had time to either write it out or to go to the morning sit at the zendo. Instinct told me to sit. I sat and it arose in my head. I wrote key notes out on a page of paper while the speaker before me (a senior director) was talking to an elaborate powerpoint. I got up, admitted that I'd just got a few last minute notes and spoke from the heart about the impact of the subject on people's lives and why things needed to change. I'm from a little voluntary sector group. The other speakers were all senior people but my speech hit home in a way theirs didn't and it opened quite a few doors for us. That wouldn't have happened if I'd over-rehearsed. It certainly wouldn't have happened in my pre-sitting days when I'd have been consumed with nerves. I've learned to trust what arises. And today that was a flow of words. To stop that would have felt like blocking something.


Bluemoon
Kokai (Sarah)
21 days ago
I hope you realise I was joking? I certainly didn’t mean to offend.
paulmac63
Paul V
21 days ago
Don't worry, I wasn't offended!! 

I find it quite comical what comes up when I sit. And I'm often bemused how much more I trust it than the answers I deliberately come up with. I turns out my non-thinking is far better at thinking than my thinking is!











Bluemoon
Kokai (Sarah)
21 days ago