400 minute meditation journal

24 October 2017 9:34 PM
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Second full day of retreat. An hour less sitting today because on the second day dharma talks start replacing one of the sitting hours from the first day. Slept through the rest period again today to give some space for the migraine. At one point during the evening sit I burst out laughing having seen another way that I get stuck repeatedly. It bubbled up with an unstoppable energy although I tried to keep it as quiet as I could given the amount of people sitting silently around me. They are used to me smiling and laughing through sits though. They used also to see me cry through a lot of them too but that seems to have stopped for now.

The laughter continued through the rest of that period, through kinhin, the next period of sitting, another kinhin and part of the final evening sit. Over an hour in total. Every time I thought it was coming to an end it would restart. When I finally stopped laughing at my past stupidity I started laughing again knowing that I am sure to repeat the same mistake over and over. 


Comments

"When I finally stopped laughing at my past stupidity I started laughing again knowing that I am sure to repeat the same mistake over and over. " Excellent point! :)))


niroxki
niroxki
about 1 year ago