I just listened to a Binaural Beat Meditation for seven minutes and gazed at a Mandala that I got from a Facebook Page - Ho'oponopono For Everyone. The Binaural Beat was from one of the Spiritual Zen Subliminal Brainwave Entrainment - Sounds rather silly doesn't it? Some of the titles of these videos are a lot of hokum, but I've learned to ignore that. The thing is, I've been looking at these videos for quite awhile. I would meditate on the image, and listen to the sound. I wanted to "break on through". I discovered sitting still, in this chair, in front of my computer, for a certain amount of time would HURT. I have problems with blood circulation. I was learning to work through that... but then I think depression, excessive heat, et al., got to me, because I got restless. I found my attention drifting from the 20 to 30 minute meditation. That restlessness made me realize I had to change what I was doing. I don't want to SIT here in front of my computer, but for now, it will have to do - (I also do meditative walking. See? I am RESTLESS. I have to move while meditating! However...) Therefore, I decided, for the sake of starting this diary at opensit I would try something new, again. Begin Again. Always begin again. I decided to go with 7 minutes for now. If I'm getting restless, BEGIN AGAIN, refocus. My neck hurts. My leg is numb. I've got my leg propped, sole flat against the wall. That helps. What I discovered, and WHAT HAPPENED is this - I was able to sit for 7 minutes, looking at this Mandala. I wish I could include a copy of this Mandala with this entry! WHAT HAPPENED, was that I quieted down, and towards the end of the 7 minutes, I loved this Mandala. I credit this as a SUCCESS.