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I've done a lot of crying while sitting. At times this has felt sad as you'd expect for crying but  it hasn't usually felt like I was sad in that moment, more that it was old emotion, previously held back and repressed. I think somehow that is stored physically. Releasing it can feel like a release so I'd agree it is probably a good sign and part of healing any old emotional wounds.

I sit with koans now as part of my practice and for me one of these unexpectedly let lose another waves of tears - I cried for at least part of each sit for 3 weeks without feeling even vaguely sad and it only happened on the cushion - before and after and indeed for most of each sit after letting out the tears I was happy and with no upset. It seemed that sitting was the time to allow the old tears to rise and clear.
Bluemoon
Kokai (Sarah)
7 months ago
Thank you :). This reminds me of a quote from Ajahn Chah:
"We want to take the easy way, but if there's no suffering, there's no wisdom. To be ripe for wisdom you must really break down and cry in your practice at least three times."

BTW, this is a nice collection of his quotes: https://www.ajahnchah.org/pdf/no_ajahn_chah.pdf
niroxki
niroxki
7 months ago
Indeed! I've also cried a lot on retreat and when sitting with the sangha. I think it happens to everyone who doesn't block it- although some of us have more repressed tears to let out! We all come to practice with different histories and we have to deal with what comes up.
Bluemoon
Kokai (Sarah)
7 months ago