Why do I meditate?

03 April 2017 6:12 PM
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Meditation has created positive changes in me recently.

Now I have an idea of making a refuge in my mind by creating a calm concentration.

Now I can see there is a hope that kindness and compassion can heal a cold, frustrated, injured heart.

Now I can open up to some extent to my neurosis, that have hit me hard all these years. Now I have some hope to live with it, to have some relaxed answer to it when it strikes.

I meditate to heal myself.

Comments

Great! It's so nice when you can see that your practice is making a difference. :)

Maybe though instead of creating a refuge / calm consider thinking that maybe it's more of rediscovering something that has been there all along? Clearing out some of the scars and groove from old wounds will allow it to shine through, maybe just momentarily at first but even that is so encouraging.

Have fun along with the hard practice! :D
Bluemoon
Kokai (Sarah)
26 days ago
By refuge I don't mean always shutting down to the painful thing that is happening, but I found it useful to keep my attention on my breath when things are getting really really wild. If I get lost in them it affects my life in very bad ways. I cannot do my simple daily routines (sometimes for days), I cannot go to work. Actually this refuge helped me to be less afraid of all those negative stuff, it helps me to let them just be there, let them be processed by the mind without active engagement of my attention. When I find the really debilitating turbulent times get somehow less intense, I get out and open up to them more.

It is hard but when you look back at the path you have come along, It is fun indeed!
niroxki
niroxki
26 days ago
Ah, I think we are talking about the same thing then really. By coming back to something a simple as the breath it is like re-finding an inner calm / refuge. It's good to remember that it is always there and accessible  - we just forget to notice it and the breath is a way to remind ourselves.

And yes once that inner place of calm / spaciousness becomes more settled and more easily accessed you can let in the rest of the world more easily.

Endless fun!!


Bluemoon
Kokai (Sarah)
26 days ago
BTW I came across this article today about seeing the tangled mess of emotions once the mind begins to settle. I wondered if it might be of interest. https://tricycle.org/trikedaily/meditation-encourages-keep-practicing/
Bluemoon
Kokai (Sarah)
26 days ago
Exactly, it is like I know fire is burning there, I am aware of it, I don't deny it, I just don't throw wood in to it, and when ever I could I engage more productively with it. :)

Thank you very much about the link, I am just going to read it!
niroxki
niroxki
25 days ago