Meditation on Emptiness Another indoor sit
The intended period of morning sitting - more arising from that koan, not one I'm supposed to be working on, but one I came across and which struck a nerve.
41 minutes of samatha
Two additional spells of practice at strange times. One in the middle of the night finishing off something triggered by one of the workshop exercises on the retreat, the other triggered by a line in a koan that got an unexpected reaction and also sparked plenty to sit with.
Meditation on Emptiness Indoor sit
Morning sitting and end of retreat.
sitting with the sangha, morning sit before breakfast, and normal saturday zendo sit.
The demons were experts in torturing people, but at the same time they were living miserable lives, a life that could be spent appreciating beauties of the world, was being wasted in dark dungeons.
20 minutes of samatha
evening sit with sangha. Again lots of sadness. Cried quite a bit, but it was still painful from the effort and tension of holding it in.
Like yesterday a guess of how much of the workshop time was in meditation
afternoon sits during workshop. Concentrating on alignment, gravity, sounds, visual periphery. As I did yesterday I raised my breastbone and it felt like facing the world, scary, uncomfortable and also good... Had an unusually relaxed and “floaty” sit.