Seeing the workings of the mind
Morning sit. I have this story that goes” I keep crying, I am tired, therefore I am not coping. Then I feel more tired and powerless. I realise that I am actually coping. I am all those things, yet I am doing what I need to do to take care of me and my kids. I made it into an affirmation that I ...
Evening sit. Back to this place as a child where I feel that I am unlovable and worthless. Which is when my grown up self remembered this is not true. Trying to find my balance again.
Lamrim Day Fourteen - Great Compassion
3 sits starting around 5 am.
10 minutes lunch time, 60 before bed
Evening sit. After a really painful talk, I felt my heart aggressively shutting down, nearly like it was caving in on itself. I recognise this having happened before, a handful of times, sparking off some really deep defense mechanisms to keep people at a distance from me. It was strange being ...
Lamrim Day Thirteen - Exchanging Self With Others
Morning sit. 😱
Short evening practice