An unplanned lying down sit - suddenly up popped another aspect of the old emotional stuff I've been dealing with lately. Seeing another part of my old patterning pop up. Something I don't do anymore but interesting to see how it impacted on various relationships and how it even impacts now to a ...
28 minutes of samatha Didn't sleep well last night, very sleepy
My first sit back home. Working through something that came up on the last day. Having seen where an old tendency of mine stems from, I have choices in whether to respond in a sinilsi way in future or to act differently. It's not easy to change habits though and I'm going to need to be attentive ...
Attention to Breathing Nice sit, indoors.
Morning sit. Metta practice.
30 minutes of metta
Final part of retreat sitting before packing up to return all the zendo gear to our usual spot ready to reopen as usual next week
Being present for what you feel right now; isn't it itself an act of compassion?
20 minutes of samatha
Most of the sitting today circled around my attitude to koan practice which is an entirely optional form of practice in our form of zen. I love koans, I find them beautiful, I respect them for having been past down through centuries of practitioners yet I don't like work with them myself. I've m ...
Attention to Breathing Very active mind today.
Morning sit. Bowing practice, which was all about letting go, coming close to the earth, getting grounded and also being vulnerable, asking for help to be able to see what is good in me, to stop being so harsh with myself.