Morning sit after a nearly sleepless night sleeping under the stars with pretty bad insomnia. Yesterday I started saying some of the things that I was holding in. It was okay. Things did not fall apart and I felt so relieved after. But then more anxiety came kicking in. Another situation where I ...
Extra night time and early hours practice.
Evening sit. Almost no migraine left!! :D
Lamrim Day Five - Actions and Their Effects Weird sit, have a ton of stuff going on, but instead of being distracted during my sit, I felt tired instead. But not before I sat or afterwards, and I got plenty of sleep last night, so no idea what that's all about. Probably just one of those thing ...
More of the same. Slightly more ability to string a sentence together this morning so a little more direction to it but building on the rawness from yesterday. Seemed to be two directions to it, part sort of deepening and trusting the direction of practice more and part "dealing with my ow ...
morning sit with the sangha. lots of crying. Feeling split still from the things that I am not expressing. But starting to get a sense that I have to change, that I cannot continue like this. Change feels terrifying.
In early May I attended one week dzogchen meditation retreat based on Jigme Lingpa’s text Buddhahood without meditation or Nang Jang in Tibetan, which, if translated a bit closer it’s original intention, means something along the lines of purifying the perception (or purifying the mind, which is ...
Sit before bed..
Practice time while allowing a migraine to come. I've been taking tablets all week for it, necessary to get through the week but they only really postponed the moment of letting the migraine work through. The feeling when I just allowed myself to stop and just allow the pain, disorientation, nau ...
Short 15 minute afternoon sit. 15 minute sit in nature. 45 minutes before bed.
Sitting as part of a workshop run by the sangha friend. First sitting pretty much as usual then sitting right next to someone, knees touching, taking it in turns to really look at the other. This sitting hour was followed by various body and movement based activities.
Lamrim Day Four - Refuge Practice Difficult sit, as a headache was coming on.
Quick lying down ''sit' outdoors at lunchtime. Background sound today was 30 excitable school kids enjoying a lunch in the sun as part of a school trip. Preferable to Guns n Roses. :)
Part midway through the night again, part morning
Morning sit and mini sit