• Week 2 • Noting Light • Breaks: 3 I did a fast scanning 'Heart,
 Body, Mind', focusing on each perception rather than losing time to attribute the right labels. Keeping a steady flow I would enter a state of being present and suffused with bubbling perceptions. I kept the fast scanning ...
apatride
over 4 years ago
• Week 10 • Noting Life • Breaks: 7 Very hard day physically, so it was nice to switch off and relax. The confusion over 'endings' came and went throughout the sit. Right in the middle of it it felt like I had a glimpse of the answer to a fairly fundamental issue I have with life... but only a ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago 2
God damn it. Girls, heartbreak. Practice as normal, there's no avoiding it.
tombh
over 4 years ago 1 4
10 minutes anapana 
 The first sit in quite some time that I've done almost immediately after getting up. Things feel blurred. I was still and quiet. The urge to check the timer appeared again, but weaker.
loupeabody
over 4 years ago 1
Did a 30 minute concentration session. This time I sat with my eyes open and softly fixated at the ground in front of me. My vision tended to move around to different areas although I held the intention of keeping it at the initial spot. Also breathed both through my nose and my mouth and focus ...
Hero764
over 4 years ago 3
10 minutes anapana 
 Slight headaches, quite sleepy, mind flushed with distractions. Stayed still and quiet, had a couple gratifying insights. 
 I had a direct experience of my fear-of-being-seen this evening. During this sit I summoned the physical sensation of the fear by thinking abo ...
loupeabody
over 4 years ago 1 1
• Week 10 • Noting Life • Breaks: 5 I was a bit bored at the prospect of this sit - I don't particularly feel excited by this contemplation. However, my focus was quite good for the first half - which again seemed to result in the confusion about when sensations were ending, and when they were ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago
• Week 2 • Noting Light • Breaks: 10+ I was very tired. Very confused & drowsy sit, with a lot of wandering. Several times I did manage to follow instructions for a few seconds each time, before wandering again.
apatride
over 4 years ago
10 minutes anapana 
 Stayed very still, kept quiet and just breathed. Alot of my sensitivity has faded, probably, but I was there at the tip of the nose for the majority of this sit.
loupeabody
over 4 years ago 1
Sat shortly after waking up. Caffeine(one cup of coffee) had been ingested less than an hour prior. Was able to maintain concentration for perhaps on average 5-6 seconds before being lost in thoughts. Equanimity seems to have been increased, almost no feelings of guilt for thinking were experie ...
Hero764
over 4 years ago 1 1
Offering Light Sit passed very quickly; felt cleansing energetic phenomena wash over me, though contracted around passing thoughts for much of the sit
HamiTipene
over 4 years ago
5 minutes anapana 
 Failed to be present and aware of sensations, but contemplated the nature of my fears. As it turns out, my goals are diametrically opposed to my fears, they run in opposition. So to do the things I want to do in my life means overcoming my fears. I never considered the t ...
loupeabody
over 4 years ago 2 2
Made it through the entire session today(samatha, 30 minutes). Took a lot longer than normal to motivate myself to sit, perhaps because I was high when I got off work. My main hindrances during this sit were feelings of tiredness and impatience. Thoughts that came up dealt with Jordan's situatio ...
Hero764
over 4 years ago 1 1
• Week 10 • Noting Life • Breaks: 6 Less of a sense of sensations never quite ending today, for most of the sit I was quite happy to mark their ending quite confidently... But this slight confusion did come back in the last five or ten minutes of the sit. My mind was quite languid for much of t ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago 1
Offering Life Initial resistance to sit; settled into inner calm and serene uplifting sensations; felt distinctly like layers were being peeled away with flashes of light
HamiTipene
over 4 years ago
My mind drifted off a handful of times, but I was able to bring my focus back to listening to the birds chirping outside. I've become more consistent with my 10 minute sessions, I think I'm ready to challenge myself to sit longer.
chrismanahan
over 4 years ago 2 1
5 minutes anapana 
 Reviewed some recent experiences of fear and collected a few objects: fear of failing, fear of confrontation, fear of being seen. There are more certainly, but I believe it's worth my time to carefully reflect on the experiences which associate with each. Just thinking a ...
loupeabody
over 4 years ago 1 1
• Week 2 • Noting Light • Breaks: 5 (?), mostly during 'Heart, Body, Mind' 'Heart,
 Body, Mind' confused at first, then awareness becomes spacey and all 
 become clearer. 'Noting Light' is harder than yesterday. I can't find 
 persisting phenomenon, they arise and pass away, comp ...
apatride
over 4 years ago
Last night and this morning's sits were pretty lousy - having a cold doesn't really help breathing in a pleasant way! Spent a lot of time distracted and thinking about work. And it's funny how I start longing to the end of a sit when I just realise that I have been spinning circles of thoughts f ...
AndyW
over 4 years ago 1
5 minutes anapana 
 My eyes looked around frantically as I focused on those two questions. I relaxed, kept on my breath. Found that I can summon my fears quite easily, demonstrating their illusory nature, I suppose. Not surprising that this is possible, it's really the primary means which m ...
loupeabody
over 4 years ago 1