Started with vipassana to investigate the guilt again as it hadn't gone away. Lots of other stuff but this was the most unpleasant and I think this was the hardest yet to give up. (Thanks Hosh, for the suggestions:-) ) Could feel it increasingly strongly and could see how / why/ what it relates ...
Bluemoon
over 4 years ago 3 2
Took Pratimoksha Vows Formally went for refuge Generated Bodhichitta. Made mental offerings to the Buddhas (including offering my practice) Developed regret for past actions. Rejoiced in the virtues of all. Developed wish for meditation and dharma teachings to continue to appear Dedicated virtu ...
OpenMind
over 4 years ago 2
Headspace Day 26. Slowly getting used to sit for 20 minutes but still a lot of thoughts or visual images flashing in mind. Though I forget to follow instructions and to remind myself during the day to put attention on what I am doing.
Bogdan
over 4 years ago 2 3
10 minutes Metta meditation, 30 minutes concentration
pajaboo
over 4 years ago
• Heart of my heart/I am yours I seem to be coming down ill tonight, I've got a blocked nose and I feel very tired... so not the greatest of sits. It felt very much like I was going through the motions, but I just sat with it and did what I could do until it was over.
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago 1 3
So glad to have had this time to myself. Would like to do it at least once a year (money permitting). As well as giving me space from family stuff (and them space from me) by not thinking about work while I have been here have also managed to get some very much needed clarity on how to handle f ...
Bluemoon
over 4 years ago 1 8
After the Nigra Yoga class I've had a deep calm spacious awareness even when things have got messy on the surface. As with the zazen, time will tell. The key difference with the Nigra Yoga class and vedanta in general is that the mind relaxes more deeply into it's natural state. It's a very eas ...
OpenMind
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over 4 years ago 3
Back home - 20 minutes zazen. Surprisingly calm - main thought was "how come I am feeling so calm and when will that stop?" This calm and then doubting if the calm is real has been a feature the last few days.
Bluemoon
over 4 years ago 3 5
I was distracted most of the time and found it almost impossible to remain with the breath. I did intend to sit for 30 minutes but gave up. It's funny because I actually do feel quite relaxed but I guess there is a lot on my mind at the moment.
Icurtis
over 4 years ago 3 1
Final day of sitting out in the wild with some more short sits. Still feeling in awe of the landscape and swearing copiously in response. In most of the sits while I have been away has been a note of amazement and gratitude such as - noticing how much beauty and power there is in the natural wor ...
Bluemoon
over 4 years ago 3
Quick 10 minutes before job meeting. A lot of thoughts about tasks that I have to do this day.
Bogdan
over 4 years ago 1
Took Pratimoksha Vows Formally went for refuge Generated Bodhichitta. Made mental offerings to the Buddhas (including offering my practice) Developed regret for past actions. Rejoiced in the virtues of all. Developed wish for meditation and dharma teachings to continue to appear Dedicated virtu ...
OpenMind
over 4 years ago 2
• Heart of my heart/I am yours I spend the evening with a friend talking meditation and philosophy, and it really fired me up with enthusiasm - I really wanted to get to the sit. The energy came into the sit with me, and I found a few of the concepts we had considered allowed me to more easily ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago
Some relationship based stuff that I don't want to go into here was very upsetting/disturbing today. It's an infrequent event (approx once every two to six months) Noted a feeling (I've had in such circumstances previously) as deep sadness and also complete gut wrenching despair. Much less anger ...
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over 4 years ago 2 10
Set off early to climb a mountain before rain storms set in. Yet more spontaneous sits... - stopped to sit (and rest) various times on the way up. I don't usually swear much but this trip seems to be leaving me lost for intelligent thought/words. I need to find some better word to use when rou ...
Bluemoon
over 4 years ago 6
Demanding, and then confronting, and then peaceful again.
Rozo
over 4 years ago 1 1
Took Pratimoksha Vows Formally went for refuge Generated Bodhichitta and meditated on it for 5 minutes, great way to start the week. Made mental offerings to the Buddhas (including offering my practice) Developed regret for past actions. Rejoiced in the virtues of all. Developed wish for meditat ...
OpenMind
over 4 years ago 1