Lamrim Day Eight - Remembering that All Living Beings Have Been My Mother Nice sit, getting used to sitting indoors after so many months of having sat in the park.
Morning and night time practice
Morning sit outside. The garden is starting to feel like my bedroom! Concentration very very bad. Despite this am noticing some positive changes. I have been speaking out more openly and honestly in the last few days. Hiding myself less. I feel like I am between two places. Still feeling queezy ...
Evening sit. Included sections in french. That's been happening a lot again recently. Another one of the strange ways my sitting goes sometimes. My french is very poor so these sits necessarily contain very little thinking as I don't have the vocabulary for complex thought
Evening sit outside. Very sleepy, and still the same stuff.
A needed lunch time break. These minisits have the power to help me function for the rest of the day even when my head is throbbing. I needed some time with no screens and no conversation.
Lamrim Day Seven - Developing Equanimity Nice sit, easier to get into a groove than it had been the last couple of times.
Morning sit. Still the same stuff... Massive anxiety has taken over. Still lovely sitting out. So much company, my cats, hens, squirrels, birds, damselflies. It is all so different in the early morning when I am sitting still, it does not feel like I am intruding at all, just being part of a dif ...
Evening sit, before sleeping outside again, by myself this time. Think this could become a habit. Last night had to make some distance between me and someone else, so that I am expressing how I am actually feeling rather than just trying to be nice. The distance my feelings and my behaviour was ...
Afternoon sit 60 minutes. Evening sit 30.
Lamrim Day Six - Developing Renunciation Hard to concentrate today, but for a good reason: It's my eldest son's 12th birthday and we have a lot planned :)
I wrote too soon. Still enough of the migraine lingering this morning to have to do the first half of this sit with my eyes closed and an eye mask on. Much better by the end, a shift in the sitting as well as feeling ready for daylight.