Evening sit. What came up was the zen phrase of Great Faith, Great Doubt and Great Determination which are said to be essential features of zen practice. As with everything in zen, the language is a translation and sometimes other words feel like a better fit. I think 'trust' works better for me ...
Bluemoon
13 days ago 3 2
evening sit with the sangha. Went tonight instead of yesterday because it was Halloween. I was very tired and briefly considered not going, and was very glad I ignored this. Was a very thought free sit. Just being with bodily sensations. The painful anxious tension in my chest was gone, leaving ...
rosie
13 days ago 3
Morning sit. Again struggling with anxiety, tensing my heart, noticing how I hold my breath. Being with this, consciously breathing more deeply, because this I can do. And placing a hand behind my neck, because this soothes me for some reason.
rosie
14 days ago 1
Evening sit. Sleepy sit to begin with. Connecting with where I am now in some relationships. Rebuilding, slow, painstaking and hopeful on one side. Loss, grief, heartache on another.
rosie
14 days ago 1
Sitting with sangha. A lot of laughing. The upside of having sat with dark places is the joy and laughter that is often found when the darkness clears.
Bluemoon
14 days ago 3
Attention to Breathing Nice sit, not quite as focused as I would have liked, but not sweating it.
GregSWhite
15 days ago 2