Haven't skipped yesterday's sit, just didn't had an awful lot to write. I'm in a similar situation today though :-) One thing I find somewhat odd but nice is that even though yesterday's and today's sit were full of distracting thoughts it still seems to be somewhat effective. On the other ha ...
kettle9
over 4 years ago 2
Very difficult to settle down. Every physical sensation churned out so many narratives, recollections, fantasies. Counted breaths and eventually stilled for a little bit. Felt my heart softly beating in my chest and then got over excited about the tingling in my forehead and lost focus again.
Edinunzio
Liz sat for 20 minutes
over 4 years ago 1
• Week 3 • Resting Light • Breaks: 6 • Passes:5 This sit progressed reasonably well and comfortably, then at a point about twenty minutes in I feel asleep, then jarred awake a couple of minutes later. I returned to the contemplation, but I found that my inner voice didn't sound 'sincere' any m ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago
Listened to a guided meditation on acceptance and welcoming for 40 minutes. Bit distracted by thoughts about work but tried to include those in the welcoming as well. I tried to tune into the sense of everything being included, even aversion, resistance and the desire to tune out. Also I kept br ...
AndyW
over 4 years ago 2 1
Week 2 Noting Light Breaks: About a gazillion Passes: na Description: It's actually quite terrifying how little focus I have at the moment. Even down to the point that after the alarm went off I reached for my laptop to make this entry, but mid-action forgot what I was doing and opened Facebook ...
Artemis
over 4 years ago
Being nudged and sat on is still frustrating but I caught a glimpse of the ego, justifying herself, lol. I'm naming my ego "Costanza". A smart ass who just has to comment on everything. It's kind of funny.
Edinunzio
Liz sat for 38 minutes
over 4 years ago 1
Another day of trying to meditate on my commute home. Got distracted and forgot I was supposed to be watching my thoughts. But I did notice many times that I lost concentration and brought it back. Caught myself from being overly defensive and refrained from interrupting a colleague while expla ...
Edinunzio
Liz sat for 38 minutes
over 4 years ago 1 2
• Week 2 • Resting Love • Breaks: 5 • Passes:4 This time I did the sit without using the repetition of 'unconditional love' in the 'gaps' between passes. I was surprised to find it didn't make that significant a difference - I was able to 'rest' in the effortlessness without getting too lost. ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago
Offering Love Started with slight sense of dissatisfaction then realised I was clinging to expectations so offered it up; thoughts intruded a few times but I continued to offer; ended with strong liberating presence
HamiTipene
over 4 years ago
So far I'm pretty happy with OpenSit. I just hope there are gonna be more people here as time goes on. Three days on here and I already recognize most names and faces. :-) But that doesn't have to be a bad thing I guess. I hope you two (yes you!) guys who started following me are okay with me n ...
kettle9
kettle9 added a diary.
over 4 years ago 3
I have to admit, so far I haven't been sitting in a formally correct position. Up until now I've always meditated on my sofa, which arguably was a bit more comfortable. Today, along with reducing the sitting time to 30 minutes, I thought I'd try sitting in the seiza position. Initially I wanted ...
kettle9
over 4 years ago 3
Allowed a wide, inclusive discernment of all and any phenomena. The joy of simply knowing things as they arise. Does there need to be anything more? Plenty of thoughts and narratives, probably because I sat quite soon after eating a delicious dinner (egg curry, 10/10). But neither the thoughts ...
danbartlett
over 4 years ago 4 1
Week 2 Noting Light Breaks: 5 or 6 Passes: na Description: Fidgety today. Still no idea what the point of this particular exercise is, but not to worry. Perhaps not knowing the point is part of the point. :) Wax on, wax off. My mind still doesn't like the fact that I'm not allowed to record its ...
Artemis
over 4 years ago
• Week 2 • Resting Love • Breaks: 3 • Passes: 3 This sit had a really nice, deep, rich quality to it that was very enjoyable - a big change from last night. I did, however, notice that the resistance to love appeared - however, I got smart about it, and remembered to apply the method to that f ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago
Week 2 Noting Light Breaks: 0 Passes: na Description: I don't really understand what this practice is all about, but I'm assuming I'm not supposed to / don't need to. Definintely easiest to work with physical sensations. Noting the middle of a thought seems basically impossible, as the act of n ...
Artemis
over 4 years ago
Offering Light Started with thoughts of a girl distracting me but gradually offered it up, surrendered self and expectations such that my need to control faded; ended in a strong bliss state, engulfed in a luminous presence
HamiTipene
over 4 years ago
40 Minutes of concentrating on my breath again. It was okay. Constant mental chattering. Was getting quieter towards the end though. I notice I'm slipping more often into a state which somehow feels like being drowsy but mentally I'm pretty aware of what's going on. It's also getting harder to ...
kettle9
over 4 years ago 1 2
It is not difficult to meditate while driving... just keep your eyes open. Supposedly there is a word for the realization that everyone else on the planet has a life as unique and full and intense as your own. What of the other direction? What is the word that indicates the realization that you ...
metalphoenix
over 4 years ago 1 1
• Week 2 • Resting Love • Breaks: 5 • Passes: 4 Whilst I started well, tonight I found some real resistance in me - I was resistant to the idea of unconditional love. This showed up as a pain in my body, and a general sense of resistance to being love - something of a desire to hide away, a ki ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago 2
Week 1 Mind, Heart, Body Breaks: 10 Passes: na Description: So tired. Little focus.
Artemis
over 4 years ago