Focus this sit really just on giving myself some breathing space before another busy day.
Bluemoon
over 4 years ago
Worked a very long day with no break so missed my early evening sit. This was a poor substitute. I knew there was a risk of me drifting off so I decided to follow a guided meditation. I still lost the last few minutes though. Looking forward to life getting its balance back in a few days time
Bluemoon
over 4 years ago
• New practice/surrender to hearts yearning • Breaks: 6 I managed more time really focussed on my heart during this sit, although my mind did still wander a good deal. Again there wasn't much going on - a pulling sensation, pressure, occasional shifts - but I was able to be with it more, and ju ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago
Bad sleep; drifted off into reverie occasionally but did not become absorbed; feelings of bliss, experience of slow opening up of the body, felt like heart was taking me somewhere..
HamiTipene
over 4 years ago
• New practice/surrender to hearts yearning • Breaks: 4 I found myself wishing that my heart would be a bit more interesting - whilst I could focus on it quite intently tonight, I generally only got shifting sensations, pressures, heat, occasional aches, and I found that my mind would wander of ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago
Spent last week having the kind of existential panic (not sure how else to put it) that has, in the past, spiralled out of control. The thought of this added an extra layer of panic. When arose during sits experienced possibility of stepping back from it. Doing yoga nidra was particularly helpfu ...
Becky
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over 4 years ago 4
Week 1/ Noting/ 5 breaks/ I felt frustrated, anxious and physically uncomfortable (My leg fell asleep). I did not pay attention to/think about the time.
Jomuco
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over 4 years ago 2 2
Long and busy day today and it took longer than normal to settle into the sit. Focus on accepting what is. Generally calm but a short and sudden outburst of sadness for no obvious reason. Decided I could be ok with that too and let it pass.
Bluemoon
over 4 years ago
Settled into a smooth calm; at the same time, felt quite open and emotional, heart open and feelings of deep love and bliss
HamiTipene
over 4 years ago
• New practice/surrender to hearts yearning • Breaks: 4 I found quite a lot of pain in my heart when I put my attention there, there before long I got lost in another lengthy fantasy which it was a bit of a battle to put down. Eventually I did, and carried on with a reasonably uneventful sit - ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago
• New practice/surrender to hearts yearning • Breaks: 4 I got lost in fantasy a couple of times, early in the sit, and these went on for an alarming length of time - it felt like I was 'working through' something as my mind really didn't want to give up on them and get back to the sit. By the t ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago
Having woken not feeling too well and knowing that I had a busy weekend ahead I got my kids where they needed to be and headed for a quiet corner of a beautiful garden area in my local park. I don't get in here often as I'm usually at work when it is unlocked. My time was limited and I wanted to ...
Bluemoon
over 4 years ago 1 4
Experience of peace, bliss, heart opening; not satisfied, feeling of yearning for something else predominated; caught myself and bought myself back and rested here, accepting what was with me right now
HamiTipene
over 4 years ago
I didn't really sit on this day. I only got 4ish hours of sleep and had to catch a plane. Whenever I had a spare moment I slept.
tombh
over 4 years ago
• New practice/surrender to hearts yearning • Breaks: 6 At first my heart didn't seem to have anything for me today - it just seemed blank. I got lost in my own thoughts for a while, whilst still keeping some attention on my heart. It seemed I needed to process something from work today, becaus ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago
Back to sitting today on one of my usual tree trunks in the park. Predominant sensations at varying times were: - a light floating feeling in the top half of my body while my legs felt steady and grounded - joy bubbling up, a bizarrely huge grin on my face - feelings of appreciation and gratitu ...
Bluemoon
over 4 years ago 1
It just struck me on the way home from work today how unusually calm my head is at the moment. Work is ridiculously busy - a big project reaching its peak, no let up in other pieces of work, colleagues leaving and me needing to find time to recruit replacements - and yet my head stays calm and i ...
Bluemoon
over 4 years ago
Meditated after coming back from the football after a few beers; mind hazy, did not take long until I fell asleep, oh well
HamiTipene
over 4 years ago 2
Awoke early - a neighbour's car alarm going off for hours on end. Decided that sleep wasn't going to come and so used some of the time in meditation. It certainly made the car alarm less annoying. Alarm has now stopped- just in time for me to get up for work
Bluemoon
over 4 years ago