Week 3 Noting Love Breaks: More break than not Passes: na Description: My word, I'm bad at this! If I focus on something, then by the time ice registered a new sensation it's way past the beginning. If I focus on nothing, my mind gets bored and wanders off and te same thing happens. Part of te ...
Artemis
over 4 years ago
Main thing the past week or so has been a programming project that has obsessed me. It feels like it did, for a few days, completely consume my entire being. It wasn't particularly pleasant. I couldn't do anything else without constantly thinking about how I was going to solve the problems of th ...
tombh
over 4 years ago 3 4
• Week 3 • Resting Light • Breaks: 7 • Passes:6 I tried sitting earlier in the evening as a way of dealing with the current bout of sleepiness during sits, and it helped for about half the session when I was able to hold onto the effortless state reasonably well, but then I found myself moving ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago 1
Week 3 Noting Love Breaks: Lots of big ones Passes: na Description: Again, the start of the week wonderings - what counts as a beginning, what have beginnings got to do with love anyway, yada. And spotting the beginnings requires a lot of focus, as it turns out, because in order to catch them y ...
Artemis
over 4 years ago
As well as the Contemplation Academy challenge, I do two meditative things routinely every day. One is a 20-minute mindfulness meditation, and the other is as 10-minute non-denominational version of centering prayer - just being still and inviting the presence of the divine/spirit/source/the god ...
Artemis
over 4 years ago
• Week 3 • Resting Light • Breaks: 6 • Passes:5 I was tired going into this sit, and so suffered from battling nodding off again. Hitting the effortless state was pretty easy after the initial resistance, and I find the 'light' one of these quite easy to 'catch', but towards the end of the sit ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago
Week 2 Noting Light Breaks: 12 Passes: na Description: My focus is still very poor, due to fuzzy brain.
Artemis
over 4 years ago
Sunday morning sit. A bit distracted and sleepy, but still relaxing and invigorating. After 20 minutes or so of focusing on just being here for whatever arises, I realise I am reifying reality as some stream of things arriving in linear order that I have to process one by one. This actually give ...
danbartlett
over 4 years ago 2 2
30 min of laying down and deep breathing. I have just been anxious dealing with disappointing news. I was on the verge of crying and throwing emotional guilt trip on my current life situation. It's not the best nor the worse. I lay down breathing out of my mouth and in through my nose. I fee ...
cheribomb69
over 4 years ago 2 2
Week 2 Noting Light Breaks: 8 Passes: na Description: Today I'm mildly sedated, having tried a sleep aid last night. So this was very peaceful. :)
Artemis
over 4 years ago
Another update from the recent retreat: http://apracticejournal.wordpress.com/2014/04/05/mahamudra-retreat-ii-decontructing-the-dualistic-mi...
Antero
Antero added a diary.
over 4 years ago
Week 1 Body, Heart, Mind Breaks: 5 Had mostly awareness of Body and Mind at first. Tightness in shoulders and legs. Aware of noise like distant background talking in Mind, ongoing. Only later did I notice Heart, or emotions. Sometimes had fear to receive and open up. I want to accept fear or an ...
leida
over 4 years ago 1
• Week 2 • Resting Light • Breaks: 6 • Passes:5 This was another sleepy sit that it was hard to control - foggy at first, then a good sense of ease, then more and more wobbly dream-like stuff as I skirted the edge of sleep. I kept going back for another pass to refocus. It felt like the sessio ...
jameswarlock
over 4 years ago
Week 2 Noting Light Breaks: 10ish Passes: na Description: Whoops, forgot to write this up earlier, and now can't remember how it went.
Artemis
over 4 years ago
Another good sit focusing on welcoming, broadening awareness, and letting things be in the spaciousness of the practice. It's amazing how aversion, restlessness and anxiety drain away when you see that how the body sensations and thoughts that constitute these feelings are just tiny elements in ...
AndyW
over 4 years ago 1 3
I noticed earlier while talking to someone that my throat was tightening up. When this happens I start to mumble more, and with less confidence, even though I feel sure of what I'm saying and happy. This happens a lot. It seems to be related to staying quiet, not being heard, not putting my voic ...
danbartlett
over 4 years ago 6 2
Had a week of doing 10 minutes here and there. Had
 a couple of chances to sit for longer. Went 3 days over weekend without sitting
 at all, due to the circumstances of the weekend, and have since sat with an indescribable
 aversion to the present moment. Closest description I have: ...
Becky
Becky added a diary.
over 4 years ago 1 4
Week 2 Noting Light Breaks: 8? Passes: na Description: Used the breath as a focus today, which improved my focus, though at the expense of the amount of noting I did. Swings and roundabouts. Several apparently entirely random memories popped up today. The mind is a weird, weird thing. As usual, ...
Artemis
over 4 years ago