Sincerely being here. Beautiful, penetrating deep stillness. The acceptance of illusion is the being of truth. Occasionally disidentifying/giving up and seeing how that highlights any other contractions or rejection. Juxtaposing with sincerely being here, interesting to see the subtly different ...
danbartlett
almost 5 years ago 1
Both formerly and now, it is only suffering that I describe, and the cessation of suffering.
thebuddha
almost 5 years ago
Just back from 7 days at Gaia House; Right now, it's like this... with Martin Aylward Had a really positive experience! Besides one rough morning, there was a lot of clarity and ease. Early days, beat myself trying to uphold certain reifications of current understanding. This awareness of 'sho ...
danbartlett
about 5 years ago 1
If the penetrative style of insight meditation is the seeing of emptiness, then equanimity is fully embodying it, and this seems to be the way for me to go at the moment. Coming at it from the suffering angle. After gaining momentum with equanimity (being ok = dropping all dualistic attachment) ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1 1
Cool new stuff! Lots of new rear and side-of-head energetics in work: fizzing, dissolving, releasing, spreading, tingling. As for sit, too much effort at first which lead to frustration. Remembered equanimity and resolved simply not to be moved which enabled strong continuity. After that saw d ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
Lying in bed last night, really staying with the field moment to moment. Saw impermanence and once again stopped correcting and trying to keep up. Break came when I engaged the emptiness of space-time-awareness pointer. Clear pop and excitement as the mind rebooted. Thought I was done afterwards ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
Noted struggle early on and consciously let go of self-referencing and self-correcting. This opened the way for the free flow of impermanent immanent novelty to take over experience and dissolve egoic calcifications. Real deep at points despite rocky start. Throat letting off fear as I cut deepe ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago
With the new territory encountered recently, I felt that maybe I need to work with the basic truth of impermanence again. So.. grounding in bodily sensations, I saw everything that arises also passes away. Throat playing up prior to sit and spread during sit, spreading the fear-excitement ener ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
Worked on an approach I was testing out last night: just inhabiting/being the entirety of consciousness until there is nothing else. Also touches on the pointer that what you are looking for is in the looking itself. Really feeling 'out' and fully being experience. At odds to what I usually do - ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
Felt rough last night and this morning so had a morning sit. Good stuff, great consistency throughout. Seeing it all, then giving up on that and lightly including while unconceiving. Then just let go more, realising that this expresses the 3Cs perfectly. Then noticed the emptiness of time, spac ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
Plenty of crown stuff today in work and in the same kind of space yesterday's sit. Excitable and energetic all day. After exploring the experience of space in perception and probing duality (what is this?) I noticed the struggle and dropped to a do-nothing approach which quickly deepened and bro ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
Yowzers. In deep, big, vast and inclusive from the get go. Saw emptiness of space/awareness which lead to blissful new territory, highly inclusive and peppered with not-knowing moments, a la nothingness. Possible equanimity phase. Again: moment to moment, and notice that it's all here. Really l ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
Irritated and frustrated for most of the sit. Head and perception in general feel a mess and tensed up. Felt myself pushing no self too much, so injected 'this is it' pointer and just let things open up and let awareness watch itself. Possible dissolution phase.
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
Some struggle at first then remembered how vital it is to just be there moment to moment as things change, fully inhabiting this totality and turning the light on any aspect that appears to be beyond this or looking into it or controlling it. Problem points seem to be ajna forehead vortex, seer ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
Big and exciting at first, then struggle, then just allowing with subtle sampling of the wide field. Possible rip/fruition at one point. Pretty tired at end. Some big rushes and accompanying energy surges. Some lower chakra sinks following big perception. Also some throat release along with u ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
Slightly disconcerting and new openness and emptiness over last day or two. Possible fruition when in bed Saturday night, focusing on the fact that everything is seen and so none of it is the seer. Seems like some of the characteristics of previous non abiding awakening beginning to seep into ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
Tired and dropping off. Stayed with it despite desire to just get up and gained some appreciation for simply being mindful of things as they occur again. All is seen, none of this is the seer - remembered this in bed 2 nights ago. In this sit it was hard to really rest or stay with sensations, a ...
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
I am not at peace because I am actively creating stress through an attachment to being - indulging the push and pull of psychological becoming. Free perception is peace and is always available as the basis of all experience.
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
Tired, bit out of practice. Relaxing and letting go into the union of wholeness and process, emptiness and form. Letting it unravel. Syncing issues, watcher chasing watched.
danbartlett
over 6 years ago 1
42 days of practice, which resulted in 13 hours and 35 minutes of meditation - asana and pranayama. Out of the 42 days I meditated on 21 days (50%). I got drunk on 12 of those days. Did roughly 13h30m of dedicated Self-Remembering. Improvements Regular morning routine - stretch and breathe.Morn ...
danbartlett
almost 10 years ago 1