• Heart of my heart/I am yours I was very tired when I came to sit, and emotionally wrung out by the day... but I was surprised that sleep didn't arise during the sit, nor did terribly strong emotions, I just sat with it and went along with it. Nothing very much occurred, but the longing was ve ...

Strange sit - mind probably too calm considering all that is going on and with a numb tingling in my jaw and a lot of shivering and goose pimples. Realise that out of sits I'm dropping into my normal role of managing the communication in the house, trying to bring people together and being the ...

What do you have to do? Pack your bags, Go to the station without them, Catch the train, And leave your self behind. Quite so: the only practice - and once. 
 
 Wei Wu Wei - Open Secret

Just a quickie to keep my run going, will get back to 30 minutes sits on Sunday morning. Then I'll be going for the heroic one hour on Monday morning. Big fun! : )

Neat to contrast between 15 and 30 minute sittings. Meaningful experience today.

Took Pratimoksha Vows Formally went for refuge Generated Bodhichitta Made mental offerings to the Buddhas (including offering my practice) Developed regret for past actions. Rejoiced in the virtues of all. Developed wish for meditation and dharma teachings to continue to appear Dedicated virtue ...

A bit groggy today. Will practice again this evening.

Headspace day 22. Again 20 minutes was too much, got pain in a back and a leg, started moving and lost concentration. will try again in the evening again.

Nervous before tonights gig. Thoughts circling around all that may go 'wrong', how I may screw up, how people will react -- all these things I cannot control. The only thing I can do is share my honest, true and vulnerable presence, and give the gift of music. This leap of faith terrifies me, ev ...

Off cushion – noticed myself getting caught up with a
 craving yesterday. Last night was awake a lot listening to a rain storm and foxes and as
 usual it seems that my mind has more sense half asleep than when fully awake. Instead
 of getting annoyed with myself for having got caught ...

Having practiced correct view of emptiness well this week it appears that my "ego" is reduced sufficiently to address some of my own dysfunctional behaviour without an internal response (no tightening of mind, no guilt etc.) An objective exercise based on wanting to cause more peace an ...

• Heart of my heart/I am yours After another very emotional day it was quite a relief to sit. I was very tired emotionally, and it made it easier to sink into a relaxed, open, state. My mind drifted at times, but I was actually able to get quite deep into the technique and just be with what was ...

30 minutes completed before bed. Might do some extra sessions tomorrow and change up the duration.

Had lots of coming back to correct view of emptiness during this working day. When driving now seem to naturally fall into this view, previously it only happened after dark when outside.

Had an unexpected outing today, so I missed my morning session. Will do another 30 minutes before bed. Giving special attention to the transition from mindfulness to wandering.

Zzz.

Took Pratimoksha Vows Formally went for refuge Generated Bodhichitta Made mental offerings to the Buddhas (including offering my practice) Developed regret for past actions. Rejoiced in the virtues of all. Developed wish for meditation and dharma teachings to continue to appear Dedicated virtue ...

Headspace Day 21. Again thoughts, thoughts and thoughts. Found it a little bit difficult to sit for 20 minutes for the first time.

Problems are created by the mind. Clinging, avoiding, controlling -- disturbing the natural flow of Life. Trying to dam up the river is pointless and futile

Started where last night's finished only with the focus moving the opposite sides of the body. More gentle too this morning. Finished with time to fit it some zazen. Nice to end with that - clearing everything away to leave the lovely zen calm and the usual daft grin. Feel very grateful for that ...