Attention to Breathing Very relaxing sit. A little too relaxing.
Morning sit. Pretty distracted. Did same bowing practice as yesterday.
Sitting in the middle of a sleepless night. Since there was no sleep to be had, it seemed more helpful to get up and sit. It was. By the morning I not only felt I needed to do what I was going to do but that I wanted to. I was ready and fired up. It was difficult, emotional and more but that was ...
Sitting with sangha. I'm not usually there on a Thursday night but today it important to be there but I didn't know why. I turned out to have some sitting to do about a potentially difficult event tomorrow. I had to sit with the possibility (probability?) of falling apart, of being too emotional ...
Attention to Breathing Indoor sit on a "hooky" day from work.
Anapana for morning sit
Morning sit - a continuation from last night but with more space and lightness around it
Morning sit. Problems with concentration and clinging to worries. Did 27 bows to surrender these, and this was helpful.
Sitting with sangha. As soon as I hit the cushion the same phrase of "I can't not" came to mind again and immediately a prolonged bout of laughter. It seems that whatever the resistance was it has now gone. Later I noticed that my attitude to something had changed. A pull as well as a ...
Evening sit with the sangha
Attention to Breathing Sitting with a bad headache. At least the weather was great.
I found this very short clip really helpful! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wVRdESC3DN4
25 minutes of samatha
Today's sit started and finished gazing out over the misty city landscape, it felt so immediate so raw. The thought that appeared in my head was "I can't not". I'm still not sure what I can't not as the question of "can't not what?" led to a tightening. Giving up needing to k ...